It has been a long, emotional roller coaster since I last even thought about writing on here. I could throw excuse after excuse at it but sometimes I have realised that I don’t need to and that I am allowed to do things (to a certain extent) on my own terms.
April has always been a hard month for me due to the death of a friend almost five years ago now. In addition, this year was exceptionally hard as I celebrated the life of my best friend whom I lost last year around the same time. Both of these were sadly due to suicide, which I’m sure I will be able to talk more in depth at a later date. We also were morning the passing of a family friend from old age.
Around the middle of April I checked my phone after a long tiring day at work and saw eight missed phone calls and many unread texts from my lovely wife. She had hurt her knee playing basketball. I drove the hour and a half to go meet her at the Italian hospital where they told us it was only a sprain. After many doctors visits and tests, we found out that she had torn her ACL. It has been a long painful process up until this point. She had surgery earlier today and now comes the recovery.
On to the good news. My brother got married last month! We were able to fly back to Montana for a week and visit all of the family I had not seen for years, many who had never had the chance to meet my wife. The ceremony was beautiful and I am so happy for my brother and his beautiful bride.
Grieving is a hard process to work through time after time and work may get stressful but seeing my brother marry the love of his life and being able to be with the love of my life makes everything sting a little bit less. My friends and family cushion the emotional toll that life can bring.
One more thing before I go, who ever you are reading this, you are loved. I love you, I care about you and others close to you love you and care about you.
Suicide Awareness Websites and Non-Profit Organisations to help someone in need or to donate to: